I had the most wonderful time over the festivities, one of my sons said it was the best Christmas he'd ever had. My 2 sons live abroad but stayed with me for over 2 weeks. Along with my son who lives in Ipswich we spent quality time together, eating, drinking listening to music and playing backgammon.

I didn’t buy them material gifts this year instead, I bought them all experiences.

Ryan went on a knife making course at a Colbert Forge in Suffolk. He was so proud of the knife he made.

Lyle had a morning at the Dove Street Recording Studios. He wrote a song the night before the session and in the morning he performed and recorded it.

I enrolled Richard on the 10-week Jaffa running course. They guarantee you’ll be running 30 minutes non-stop by the end of the course. I'm running with him for moral support and so far he’s enjoying it.

It’s the first full week of January and my last visitor flew out of the country on Tuesday. I feel there’s a huge gap in my life. For the last 2 years I’ve been keeping myself busy, travelling, taking on new projects but now I feel directionless. It’s not an altogether bad feeling because I do have options, working in Sicily, spending time in Japan, developing my YouTube Channel and there’s a possibility that I might get part-time work.

I want to make sure that what I choose is right for me. I’ve had an interview today for a part-time teaching job, I think it went well. If I get offered the job, my next stage will be to accept or reject.

I want to continue travelling, that costs money but will my wings be clipped?

It’s lovely to have options and for that I am grateful. I wish I could ask Steve what I should do.

#MyPrelovedLife : 24/1/19